i've felt a little bit like an atheist the past couple weeks. i felt that God wasn't real in a way that i don't know i've ever felt before. not for any particular reason i'm aware of. just a feeling.
then today i was driving through trees and grass and again i felt that familiar sense of God as the completion, or fulfillment, or, at bare minimum, a necessary corollary of reality. God was in the air, somehow.
the only difference was my perception, obviously. feelings are not good to trust, i don't think.